self-destruct

I used to be able to take apart a situation and analyze it for answers
I used to be able to consider possible outcomes in a calming, logical way

But my head is screaming and it won't shut up, shut up, shut up for five seconds so I can sort things out, it's sending shock after shock after shock through my system and I'm not grounded

I need a buffer, I need an answer

I need a thousand answers

Why does he think that's the life he's supposed to lead

Why shouldn't I be in it
What's so wrong with me

he rejected me


Oh God, please
please, please, please
help him grow up and see

tell me that this is the worst of things